im feeling a lot better. i think 2 days is the longest i can go without sunshine. as soon as the sun broke free of the clouds i felt better. kelly and i took a LONG walk on monday cause it was so nice outside (i was in sandles). then yesterday it was also nice out so walking home from work was very enjoyable. 

it really got me to inner self reflect. i found this quote the other day online and im trying to internatize it:

If the source of your happiness can be taken away, you’re not really happy. And of course, when I say happiness I don’t mean a smile on your face. I mean a deeper, inner happiness. A sense of peace with life.

If you’re happy for a reason, that reason can be taken away. True happiness isn’t based on externals. It comes from within.

Dig deep. Let’s be happy not because.

ugh. so i think ive based too much of happiness on other people. if they're not happy, im not happy. i truely let it get me down. so ive been working on finding what makes me happy, cause if i lose what was the foundation of my happiness, then im sol. so i did a random act of kindness yesterday. it filled me with such joy that im going to try and do it more often. it was very little, but it helped. 

xmas and a lot of fun with the family here. joel got a Flip Digital Camera and is loving it. ill upload the video of my parents opening up a xmas present. it always brings a huge smile to my face when i see it.

*HUG*