my bubble

you is frustration

i feel like i live in this bubble. a bubble of happyness. id like to say that i try to not let negative things affect me, but they just dont.... i think it just slides over my bubble. the thought that rage can be pent up was told to me a lot, but i never truely believed it. now i defintaly dont. rage doesnt get pent up. an 'explosion' of "pent up" remorse never happens when i do some i regret. so why would rage be any different?

so if i have this bubble, why have i allowed myself to get frustraded? it does me no good, but i still allow frustration to be the first thing out of my mouth sometimes... let me give you an example:

out washing machine is leaking, so i placed a towel on the ground the soak up the water while i was at work. when i got home i put it in the sink. when we were getting rdy for bed, joel asked me to move the towel so he could wash his face. i was reading my book and in a frustrated voice, fussed at him to take care of it himself.

now why did i do that? was i annoyed that he interrupted my reading? was i annoyed that he just didnt didnt take care of the 'situation'? was i tired? idk, but why did i let frustration take over me so easily?

now that ive recognized ive let frustration into my bubble, how do i push it out?